One year

Dear Kyah:

In a little under an hour, it will be the one year anniversary of your death.  It doesn't seem possible that it's been a full year without you in this world.  At the same time, it's been forever since you were here.  I miss you with all of my being.  There is so much I wish I could say to you, so much I wish I would have said.

One thing for sure, I'd tell you I love you at every possible chance and show you even more.  I know you knew I loved you but I don't know if you knew just how much.  I cannot put it into words now, and it's not that it matters anyway, but I truly did, and do, love you to the moon and back.

The world is strange without you.  It will never be the same but we are all doing our best to move on and get used to this new normal.  I'd give virtually anything to have you back but I know that's not an option.  So I do my best to move forward, moment by moment.  Some days are easier than others and some days are totally unbearable.  But I keep going.  I know it's what you'd want me to do.

Love you, Kyah.  I always have and I always will.  To the moon and back.  Miss you, girl child.