Because this would make you laugh

Back to school

Tomorrow, the KHS class of 2017 will start their senior year. They will be the first class to graduate from the new high school. They are making plans for after graduation and looking forward to a year of making memories. 

You should be with them. Your should be there. Instead, this is a year of "what if" and "if only."  It will be a year of difficult moments when I will miss you extra. It'll be two semesters worth of those things you'd looked forward to doing and me mourning those events that you never got to experience, so many of which we take for granted. 

Tomorrow should have been something special...

Best friend

I found out, shortly after your death, that you considered me your best friend. It made me feel good but also so sad. I love you so much and you will forever be one of my best friends.  I miss my best friend. 

Three years ago

Never knew I could miss you more than I did in that moment. 

And then your dad and I separated and I only saw you via FaceTime and every three months or so. 

And then you died. 

And now I will miss you for the rest of my life. 

Every morning

Cards from my people

So many people remembered you with flowers and plants.  It's always a little heart-warming to see the show of affection after the fact.  Not that these people didn't love you in life, but they truly are honoring you in death.  In some cases, the senders didn't know you at all, but do know me, and, I would say, care for me a great deal.  Here are the cards that accompanied the plants and flowers from my people.

Marie is a friend of Lori's and we've friended each other on Facebook but have never met in person.  The flowers were from her, her husband, and youngest son.

Some of my dearest friends from Cozad High School Class of 1992.

Pagan friends

Grandma and Grandpa Higbee, Trevor and Tina

The duality of memories